After Julie left to go back to her life in LA, I have to admit that my house seemed that much more lonely. The city felt that much less exciting. The Craft Lake City Arts Festival was that same day she left and carried over to the next. I found myself uninspired to go on Friday, and almost decided against going on Saturday. But when I sat down and started setting up my first few posts on this blog – all featuring my recent adventures with Jonah and Julie I found myself feeling obligated to go. I had to keep exploring and keep taking pictures. I needed to seek out inspiration before my new found inspiration had completely fizzled out. It wasn’t about just enjoying the products of peoples imaginations, and possibly sucking in some of their creative air. It was a simple exercise in staying motivated and resisting the “eh”.
I know that you know about the “eh”. Living indifferently or dragging your feet is no way to carry on. It happens to us all, and it’s as tempting and inviting as a candy bar (I use that poor example because I am currently dreaming of a kind sized snickers bar right at this moment… and wow does this pregnant body take a lot more to get over temptations… but resist, I will.) Anyway, y’all get the point. Find inspiration and follow it. That is all I’ve come up with for now. That is what helps me each day to fight the nagging “eh.” Sometimes looking through a lens helps me want to see more. More than my boring sofa. More than my drab beige walls. When my finger itches to release that shutter I am forced to find something worth capturing. Then, even if I’m not even photographing a single thing, I find that I am on my feet doing something. Making something nicer, cleaner, more presentable (myself maybe. Jonah possibly?), or something yummy even. All that, because I was inspired.
This is the first time I’ve seen this face J is making. He walked himself around in that stroller (yes, a driverless toddler – ain’t nothin gonna hold him back) breathing through his teeth that were biting his upper lip… after like 5 minutes I thought he was possibly possessed. Such a weirdo.